The Post I Never Wanted to Write… RIP Magnus.. ♥

So this is the post that I have been dreading writing for a few months now. I knew the end was nearing for my Magnus cat, but I didn’t think it would happen so suddenly. I am going to keep this brief as I don’t want to spend the rest of my evening in tears. It was just a week ago I posted a whole post on my cat (here), and 3 days later it was the last time I would see him.
He had been through a very rough time over the years. Being abandoned as a kitten and again as a young cat, losing his eye, and then becoming fully blind, and then developing gum disease and losing his teeth. But he always kept up his spirit (and appetite!). However, on Wednesday we found him bleeding a lot from his mouth. Although he was still eating, he could hardly move, and his gums had turned white. After a bit of Googling, the apparently meant that he was bleeding internally, and he was suffering from shock.
After spending the afternoon sitting with him on the backdoor step, I could see that he was suffering and didn’t want to stick around anymore. And I knew that we were all helpless to save him. He was a very old cat and we knew there was nothing that even the vet could do for him this time. 7 years ago the vet told us that he wouldn’t last longer than 6 months, but we didn’t want to put him down then, he seemed so happy. And he carried on living as a healthy cat for many more years. 
But on Wednesday we had to make the heart breaking decision to put him down. This absolutley killed me, but I knew it was for the best, as he looked so weak. I spent the afternoon with him, and he still purred as I  stroked him and gave him a little brush. But he didn’t move from that doorstep all day. So in the evening, we took him to the vets and said goodbye for the last time.
I couldn’t stay in the room as he had the injection, but my Mum stayed with him, while my Dad and I waited outside. We decided that we wanted to take Magnus’s body home with us so we could bury him. So that same evening my Dad worked hard to built him his own wooden coffin, and dug him a deep hole in the garden, under the birdtable (his favourite hangout), where we buried my baby in his box. 
Words cannot explain how much I loved my Magnus, and how much I miss him now. But I know we did the right thing for him. He was the best cat I could ever have wished for and I will miss him everyday. I love that even though he has been very sick over the last year, he stayed here so that I could see him when I got back from Florida. I was terrified he would die while I was away and I wouldnt get to say goodbye. But he lasted a few extra months, and we even got a last Christmas with him.
RIP Magnus 11/01/2012 ♥

The two above photos were taken on his last day ♥

Kitty when he had 2 eyes 🙂

Me playing ‘babies’ with him as a child, forcing him into my dolly buggy

Me dressed up as a war child for school with Magnus ♥

Magnus sitting on my bedroom desk with him, admiring my goldfish bowl!

Saying goodbye before I went to Florida

Us sleeping in the conservatory when I was 13!

17 Comments

  1. January 15, 2012 / 8:12 pm

    I'm so sorry for your loss! I have a kitty that I absolutely love, and she's going on 16 years old. I can't imagine being without her. I know what you're going through is horrible, but just remember the good times, laughter, and smiles you both shared throughout the years.

  2. January 15, 2012 / 8:28 pm

    This post actually made me well up. I'm so sorry, it's really upsetting isn't it. My cat died suddenly about 4 years ago now, and it was really sad. People don't realise how attached you get. Just remember what a lovely cat he was. Hope you are okay! xx

  3. January 15, 2012 / 8:46 pm

    Awww I'm so sorry to hear about your loss 🙁
    But it sounds like Magnus had a long and happy life with your family 🙂 xx

  4. January 15, 2012 / 9:17 pm

    I'm sorry to her about Magnus. I hope you can take a positive from this sad time & always remind yourself when you are feeling sad that he had a very long & happy life with you.

    Sending you lots of love!

    Jen x
    http://kitsch-n-sync.blogspot.com/

  5. January 15, 2012 / 9:45 pm

    Oh this post is ever so sad.. I know exactly how you feel doll! We had our family cat put down a few years ago now, it happened so soon. I stayed in aswell, the saddest thing ever!
    Magnus looks an absolute cutie, and seemed like such a strong character!xx

  6. January 15, 2012 / 10:12 pm

    Awh baby, I'm so sorry about Magnus 🙁 He was so lovely and hilarious climbing on terrifying surfaces and what not! Sure he's keeping his eye on you from Cat Heaven with O'Malley and everyone else's lovely kitties.
    Love you baby
    gabriellasofia
    http://hautefuture.blogspot.com/
    x

  7. January 15, 2012 / 10:21 pm

    lots of love and god bless – its always so hard losing a much loved pet xxx

  8. January 15, 2012 / 10:54 pm

    Awww I was so sad reading this post =( He was a beautiful cat and even though he had a rough beginning, he had such a wonderful life with you and your family.

    RIP Magnus <3

    Jen xx

  9. January 15, 2012 / 11:02 pm

    I feel so sorry for you 🙁 this is really sad, it made me cry a little.
    Courage, and take care of you <3

  10. January 16, 2012 / 10:34 am

    aww 🙁 he was such a cute cat. Having to put a pet down is the hardest thing 🙁 xx

  11. January 16, 2012 / 2:19 pm

    He was a beautiful cat! He looks so much like mine who's also getting on a bit now. I hope you are okay soon, people don't seem to understand how attached you can get to cats unless they have one! xx

  12. January 16, 2012 / 5:29 pm

    Thank you everyone for all of your very kind words. It's been a hard time but I'm glad hes not suffering anymore. xxx

  13. January 16, 2012 / 7:07 pm

    This post made me shed a tear, cuz i know exactly how you felt, at the time its like loosing a part of you,
    looking at the pictures he had the best life growing up with you and he was clearly loved 🙂
    he was such a gorgeous kitty kat aswell, i'm sure he owes everything for you rescuing him and loving him,
    RIP Magnus

    P.s I got your comment on my post, x x

  14. January 17, 2012 / 12:31 am

    RIP Magnus. This made me tear up, it's so sad losing a pet. I lost my kitten a few months ago and it was heart breaking. It gets easier with time and you just think about all the good times you had with him. He looks like he was a happy cat and had a happy life and that's all thanks to you, so remember that 🙂
    I hope you are ok xxx

  15. January 17, 2012 / 1:25 am

    So sorry about Magnus 🙁 I know the feeling, my cat was my best friend and had to be put down and I didn't get to say goodbye- it was horrible. But it makes your heart break to see them in pain, so you know it's for the best. People tend to think "It's only a cat" but it's like losing a member of your family.
    At least he's now free from suffering and enjoying life in kitty heaven, I'm sure 🙂
    Stay strong xxxx

  16. August 25, 2012 / 7:55 pm

    Just read this post after the link you left in your more recent one – sat and read it and wanted to cry. I lost my cat a few years ago after he was knocked down by a speeding car in front of me 🙁 it was heartbreaking – its amazing how much animals impact our lives.
    Id love to have another cat one day – i have to borrow my boyfriends at the moment! xx

  17. September 19, 2012 / 7:54 pm

    awww this is so sad it brought tears to my eyes I genuinely know how you feel. x

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